Monday, October 03, 2005

homecoming this saturday!!!! (and SAT's) So its gonna be sort of a bittersweet day. haha. Pix at CTC, so anyone who's coming be there.

To Ms. Lee <33

-I'm glad i was able to make you feel special with what i did for you. Thank you for everything and God bless you always. Finally! A chance to talk with each other in person for more than 20 minutes, lol! I hope we have lots of fun (hehehe wat are u thinking about??) at hc and lets remember these memories always... I love you sweetheart...

Among The Waves`
+ 9:59 PM

Friday, September 23, 2005

it's all good now....

Among The Waves`
+ 11:02 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

crap, shit, and every other freakin cuss word man has created on this earth. That's it, I am offically the worst friend ever....NEVER get close to me, cause i'll just cause pain in u're life with my mistakes....shit..

i feel like crying........man... I can't believe it.. that's it...its totally certain. I am the worst person living on this earth.

I just wanna....i just wanna die right now....I'm such a idiot...

Saying sorry and using words isn't enough huh...? I don't really know what to do, but seriously, do something to hurt me. HURT me and cause me pain, cause it's totally what i deserve. I guess that my life hasn't helped anyone...all i've done is hurt people. I can't believe this....get me the hell outta here...

Yea...i don't noe what to do anymore...i don't really wanna do anything anymore...i don't really wanna press on anymore...i wonder what the world would be like without me....probably better huh?

And finally---to you:

I'd give u all this crap about how i wouldn't do it again and all, but it wouldn't really help would it? I guess I should have been truthful about this, but obviously i was being retarded and not thinking. Typical me. If u never wanna talk to me again....i guess i deserve it...everything u give me this next few weeks...i'll take...i'll take it and accept it. It'll hurt, but that's how i'll learn i guess.... i'm sorry.....

can u ever forgive me for something this horrible? i wouldn't forgive myself...i don't think i ever will... i'm sorry.........so sorry....

To everyone else: i'm not gonna commit suicide or anything, so chill. I'm just...an idiot. Don't EVER become too close to me. All i'll bring you is pain...

Among The Waves`
+ 8:14 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

to someone special~

i know that i've kept things from you, and i know that's caused you to question how important you are to me. But i don't want it to be that way. You are way too important to me for that.

So thats it then. No more secrets, from now on you will be told everything that's in my heart, and all i ask for in return is that you come to me whenever u need a shoulder to lean on. I can't tell you how much this past year has meant to me. From comp sci. (ugh :D) to english, we've become closer as friends. I now realize that you've become a part of my life. Don't u EVER forget that.

So! Yesterday u seemed sorta mad at me, and that scared me. ALOT. I didn't know what i had done, and that made me feel so helpless. I'm sorry for keeping secrets from you, but its one of the many flaws I have. When you were mad (or fake mad) at me, i really was scared that i had done something that would hurt our friendship. I never want to do that. I care about you TOO much to do that.

So that u're letter. I hope right now u're smiling and thinking i'm a total suck up and everything. haha. Hopefully the next 2 years will allow us to become closer as friends. U never noe when i'll drive to u're house...even thou its lyk 10 million hours away. haha. I'm here for you always okay? Call me when u feel lonely, happy, sad, or even just when u wanna scream at someone. Thats me! I'm lyk a little punching bag to take out your anger and frustration on.

Just come to me...I'm listening..

read~(1st corinthians 13: 4-7)

Among The Waves`
+ 8:55 AM

Thursday, September 08, 2005

happy 2 months sweetheart...i love you so much... hopefully in the coming years we'll be able to look at each other and smile, sharing the love between us and knowing that what we have is true. God has blessed our relationship, and i thank you for all the memories that i now cherish in my soul forever. God must be with you, because you're the closest thing to an angel i've ever met....

I love you~

Among The Waves`
+ 10:10 PM

Sunday, September 04, 2005

hello. this is vivian hahn. you guys don`t know me...but...yeah. i`m updating for mister patrick right now. sooooo today...he wasn`t at church. he was at san diego. it was fun. yes it was. but i don`t know. i`m not sure. ANYWAYS. to bad you missed out. today johnny talked about fellowship. and after we prayed for eachother. it was fun. but hope you had fun at san diego. heard you saw jessica lee. that`s cool. it`s a small world aaaaaaafter aaaalll. yeeeaaaahhh. haha. okay dokays. YOU JUST SIGNED OFF ON ME! meanie. i was gonna ask you something too! FINE! just kidding. alrightys...bye bye patio. TALK TO YOU LATER!!!

ooohhhh. you can change colors!!! COOOOOL!!!

Among The Waves`
+ 9:36 PM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

welcome back from retreat guys...i wish i could've gone....




i wish....

Among The Waves`
+ 5:11 PM